I think this generation grows up way too fast. I grew up way too fast there are so many things i should have discovered and done later in life. love shouldnt have been something to worry about back in year 7. I shouldn’t have had a boyfriend too. I was just naive i guess. But that still doesn’t change the things that happened. The things that have been engraved into my life. But 2011 taught me things, i learned how stupid and young i was, how i have been treated terribly all my life and yet i was such a positive kid.

Now when I think back I think how stupid i was. I was bullied and I didn’t realise… There was this girl anabel and she told me I couldn’t play with my own friends because she was gonna play with them. All my friends wanted to play with me too but Anabel threatened them and said if they did play with me she would tell the teacher. Before that was a big deal, and we all knew the anabel was a cry-y baby so that left me all alone during most of my breaks. Now when I think about it, I should’ve done something. In year 3 I thought life was fair, I used to think my best friend took turns giving every friend the same amount of love, if she was going to be nic’s partner today maybe it’s my turn in 2 weeks, that theory draged on for months, or until our classes got mixed up. By then i had found a new friend, Kira. I know, I know shes supposed to be my worst enemy. But at the time we were like best friends. Since my “best friend” was busy with her other friends. When i finally found kira, my best friend came back.

My first boyfriend. Was the worst mistake of my life. period. He was the worst guy in the world. urgh. fucker. since he was my first boyfriend  he took my frist kiss ew. he was not a gentlemen. but since i was young i didnt know that. He cheated on me from the start. I wasted 8 months on that douche. Moving to STC wasn’t that bad. I honestly didn’t realise until I looked back how miserable i was. I was depressed. I was a nobody. (not that its a bad thing) I honestly didnt have many friends. STC brought me to the semi top. People in the year knew me, in WIS people only knew me because we grew up together, went to the same kindergarden or primary school. But in STC I barely spent a month with them and they knew me. I got a best guy friend, which i didnt have WIS. I had a quite alot of friends, and a decent main group which kept me motivated to get good grades and kept me decent. I also had my more… hardcore friends. The ones that help me get the guy or closer to the guy I like, the friends that remind me of WIS. They were the more girly side of me. STC.. without it I would’ve never met Justin…

Justin. Hes a player. I knew that from the start. But he gave me my first butterflies, my first firework kiss, my first boyfriend-y feeling. He was the one I wanted to give kisses on the cheek randomly. He was the only who when he held my hand made me really excited and happy. He was my first love, well second but eh. He was never my boyfriend, but we did things many people would consider couple-y things. My first bf was the “sweet talk type” with the I love yous and you’re so pretty kind. But Justin he never sweet talked me. He was the sweetest guy, without words but with actions. the kisses on the cheek, the hugs from behind, the bringing me home, the bracelet. The simple gestures of a gentlemen, buying dinner, opening doors, ladies first. you know. He has his flaws but I could love him forever with them too. Only if he loved/loves me. 

Growing up, it’s tough. I’m only just beginning, i know that but lets just say this generation gets a early start compared to the last one. I’ve still got a lot to learn.